haix tml is econs test n the more i read, the more nth goes into my brain =.= nvm i believe i can do it wahahax muz hv faith in myself!
i guess some stuff are nt as simple as it seems to be.
mum juz made me see the electricity bill =.= i am in a BIG trouble

sarah♥

can someone pls tell me wad to do?i'm seriously clueless.i'm neither here nor dere, caught in the middle.all thx to you lahx! seriously.if you nv started it, everything wil nt hv happen.mayb i'm thinking too much into it bt i really think tt wad i'm worrying abt came true.if you wan to b so obvious den juz tel me straight.dun hv to pretend to b nice n stuff. i dun nd tt kind of treatment.seriously.you can treat me real nice n the next moment, you gif the feeling tt you might kill me anytime.i seriously cant take it.if you think tt i am unaware abt my surroundings, you are so wrong.very wrong.i'm nt dumb ok. if you hv any probs wif me, tel me lahx y keep quiet?scared i wil break down ar? sry.i'm nt so weak.if you're nt happy wif me say.dun pretend like nth happen n treat me so nice den stab me bhind my back.i seriously dun mind you telling me hw much you hate me. really.at least i noe wad are you're feelings towards me.i dunno hw to react to your actions.you are always forever changing n i'm tired of reacting to your acts.its a very tiring thing to do.i think i might really suddenly burst n juz flare up.

sarah♥

=.= dcided to gif my eyes n brain abit of rest bfore continuing studying for my managemant ica which is tml.wen dere is ica, all the icas come in one go x.x y cant dey juz seperate it like 2 in a week?haix wadever got to accept it even hw much i hate it.watched life transformers on channel 8 juz nw n i realized something.I SHUD B VERY CONTENTED WITH WAD I HV NW AND STOP DEMANDING FOR MORE. seriously.wen i watched todays episode, i found myself to b very lucky and blessed.i've been very greedy and selfish.always wanting so many stuff, anyhw spend my $$$.(more like parents' $$$) in the episode the mother is very sickly n has 5 kids.all boys.dey live in a 2 rm flat.wen dey were videoing the house dey live in, i was stunned n felt disgusted. the floorings were bad, walls were vandalized by the 2 youngest kids, everything were in a mess. dey dont hv a proper sofa, dining table, nt even a study table. the whole living room was filled wif stuff. i mean lots n lots of stuff.the room was OMG.dey oni had one rm so the whole family hv to squeeze into tt small little rm dey had.bt my goodness. the rm was so so messy.the beds were badly in shape. dey had a missing door wardrobe. in a whole, the house was in great mess n the condition dey lived in was really very bad. the father has to work 7 days in a week juz to get tt small amt of income. the mother couldnt work cuz she has illness.i really wonder hw dey actually can live in tt kind of situation. wen i watched, i felt sorry for dem. its really very saddening to c the environment dey are living in. suddenly i had this feeling of being very demanding, greedy, selfish?cant find the rite word to describe. i really shudnt demand for so many things.i shud always b contented tt my parents are able to provide for me. i shud always put myself in these pple's shoes n reflect on myself. these pple hv to work so hard n always struggling to live on.here i am living healthily and in a nice environment. so y am i stil so nt happy? y am i always demanding for more things? i shud really stop hving this attitude.

sarah♥

sarah♥

everything i do its a crime, so i shud always sit in one corner n rot ^^

sarah♥

sarah♥

the day started off well.everyone was in a good mood.bt at the end of the day everything came crashing down.as usual, wasnt able to go to sch n was supposse to collect stuff fm amk. so mum sis n i went to amk juz to collect it.everything was fine den nth happen.den mum wanted to buy something for both sis n i. i was like so looking forward to it cuz its something tt i've been yearning for n finally i cud get my hands on it. so went around a few stores to check out the prices. sumhw landed in funan.the prices wasnt very appealing to mum so in the end we slacked at a cafe n my stupid sis started insisted of hving something else.TTS WHEN EVERYTHING WENT WRONG.my mum was toking on the fone n kena pyschoed into it n mum agreed into getting my sis wad she really wanted instead.n den my mum say the deal for me was OFF! __ WTF?!at first she say tt both of us are getting it n suddenly my sis insisted on something else n the stupid fren went to pyscho her n dere goes my deal. WTF?!juz bcuz my sis prefered something else n she gets wad she wants n i dun hv ANYTHING wen you at first say tt you are getting it for me?!i seriously flare up i mean wad kind of logic is tt?!its like if my sis is nt getting the thing i oso want i cant get it.MY SIS DUN EVEN DESERVE ANYTHING AT ALL LAHX!she didnt even work hard for it.SHE FAILED 2 SUBJECTS n she gets a reward.in my whole life even if i passed EVERYTHING i get NTH!WTH?!hu is the one saying tt if you dun work hard for it dun bother asking me for anything.so may i noe why in the world she gets her stuff wen she didnt work hard for it?i really dun understand!explain to me!always say tt wadever i wanted cost a bomb.so a freaking useless thing tt cost $300 isnt a bomb?!wen my stuff cost cheaper n its something tt i really nd?come on lahx!it doesnt make sense at all can!den my mum started saying tt cuz my sis hv way lesser things than me so i do nt nd it cuz i've gt so many other better substitues?WTF?!all the stuff i hv are really a nd n nt a want?!it juz doesnt make sense at all!i was so fucking pissed wif my mum n sis tt i ignored dem for the rest of the day.my sis nw is so fucking happy cuz at last i am in bad terms wif my mum?!she kept smiling all the way?!FUCK HER LAHX!she gets wad she wants lahx!happy?!ASSHOLE!!!!

sarah♥

arr!!its selling at $29 T.T hope i can find one blogshop sell cheaper =.=

sarah♥

x.x went back to c the doc again.grrr.nw i nd to go to the dentist to extract the wisdom tooth out arrr!!!i hate extraction.i nd to get 2 out lahx!WTF.hates >< den waited for sis to finish sch n she wanted to cut her hair.so i followed along wahahax my hair gt shorter by an inch whee!wanted to cut it shorter though bt the hairstylist was unwilling(as usual).he was like one inch is enuff =.= arr!dunno if i am able to go sch tml

sarah♥

CHIP N DALE!!! loves lots xD

sarah♥

grrr. suddenly i gt some stupid gum infection.nw i cant even tok properly n eat x.x i only can DRINK porridge. literally DRINK! i cant even bite.den i gt dis ugly swell on my left cheek x.x went to c the doc. ytd n he said its bcuz of the wisdom tooth, gt nt enuff space, so thus causing the gum infection grrr!den he juz gave me painkillers n antibiotics n dere goes $39 =.= wad the hell?!den i nd to go c him on wed again to c if the swell subsided. if nt i gt to go the the dentist to extract it off.ME HATES EXTRACTION OF TOOTH.after the extraction of 4 teeth cuz of the braces, i am like so nt wanting to extract anymore teeth.bt if its like very serious, i guess i gt no choice.my mouth is seriously in pain T.T

sarah♥

whees!!!TUES was damn FUN!!! mum gt tickets for the KPOP NIGHT xD.hw she gt it?by SHOPPING =.= den queued for 2 hrs juz to get the tickets.i'm impressed by her leg strength hahax.4 tickets wahahax!!!
after waiting for like 2 weeks the day finally arrived.after sch father came to fetch me n guess hu we saw?the freak show.my dad was disgusted by the way she dressed wahahax.way to go daddy!den went hm to fetch mum n sis n headed to the indoor stadium ^^.whoa!wen we reached the whole place was damn crowded had to queue to get in. look at the crowd.n tt is oni like one part of it =.=the stage

waited damn long for the thing to start.supposingly it shud b starting at like 7.30pm?in the end the show started half an hr ltr x.x bfore the actual show start, dere were ads,i was like =.= fm cinemas to concerts, dere are stil ads.
next.ANDY!!!DAMN CUTE LAHX!!!

lastly WONDER GIRLS!!!!instead of taking pics i went to video instead

dey did the ending wahahax.i had a blast!

sry for the small screens x.x

sarah♥

arrr.WHY IN THE WORLD I AM DOWN WITH FLU?!den i sound so MAN nw x.x me hate being sick!!!
omg omg omg!i found out a thing tt made me felt like puking *yuck*

sarah♥